The other day a coworker asked me “Do you smoke?” I said nothing. She looked at me in disbelief “YOU DONT SMOKE?!” she exclaimed ridden in judgment. A tone I’d gotten when I would tell people “I don’t drink.” “Because I don’t want to” was never a good enough answer. So, I started telling people “I’ve been sober for 2 years,” and they back off immediately. It’s as if simply being isn’t enough. It’s only enough if denial exists in lieu of a trauma narrative.
I started smoking during the pandemic while in quarantine. There wasn’t much else for my friends and me to do except smoke and explore nature. Since the pandemic it seems like everybody is engaged in smoking culture. It is now in the fabric of society in the United States, dare I argue globally. The more I yearn to step away from the smoking culture the more I realize how strange and group think it has become. It’s like an identity, a personality characteristic. I always prefer to go against the grain and in this way, Spirit is calling me back to sobriety.
It was good, until it wasn’t.
Weed did assist me on my spiritual journey at some point. Certain kinds of openings occurred when I first started smoking to heal. Weed as a social variable but also as a tool to connect with the U-N-Iverse around me. When I started using it, I was in a strong deeprestion. It eased my mind, mellowed my emotions, and allowed me to look at certain aspects of life from a higher perspective. But now, it sends me into overdrive. When I smoke I get brain fog and dissociative. I become lazy in the sense that my drive, discipline, and gumption go away. There is a different kind of wind beneath my feet when I’m sober. It is light, the same as being sober from drinking, lust, binge eating, or even overworking.
Here’s a secret: our purpose in life is to seek truth and light. How that pans out in our life is dependent on nature, nurture, talents, environment, growth, development, processing, internalization, and so much more. Often people will say “I just want to help people. I feel like that’s my purpose in life.” Yes, precisely. By being your authentic self and living out loud, your very existence is a fulfillment of purpose.But for me, smoking holds me back from fulfilling my purpose because it hinders me from being as fully vibrant as I can be.
There is a scale known as the Hawkins Scale. The Hawkins Scale was created by David R Hawkins M.D. PhD who is an authority and researcher in the fields of consciousness research and spirituality. He developed this scale by using muscle testing on over 250,000 different calibrations to evaluate and identify 17 different levels of consciousness.
According to this scale, humans can vibrate on at least 900 levels of energetic frequencies. Different activities that we engage in on a day-to-day basis allow us to operate at different frequencies. How we manage our emotions, how we act and react to life’s situations etc. are all associated with certain frequency levels. We can raise or lower our frequency levels based on how we live our life. Weed operates at a 250hz frequency which is the frequency associated with neutrality. This is the “mellow” effect that we feel after smoking. It feels beneficial if you are operating at a dangerously low frequency below 250hz.
256hz is the frequency of the root chakra- the base.
If you are operating at any frequency below 256hz you are for certain not living a life in alignment with your divine. You may feel as though you are a constant victim, as if life is against you, and things are never going right for you. But that isn’t true. Life is not about right or wrong, it is about action and reaction.
As life happens you attract that which you put out. When you raise your vibration you will come to learn, see, and experience a life that aligns with that higher frequency. For example, “pride” resonates at a 170hz vibrational frequency. Fear is at 100hz, and shame is at an all-time low frequency of 20hz. If you’ve developed your sense of identity around experiences that trigger feelings of shame, guilt, or grief, then smoking could catalyze to raise that vibration! But what happens when your cellf awareness increases? When you go to therapy to work through your traumas? When you’ve sat with your grief and learned acceptance and forgiveness? When you start meditating and becoming aware of your thought processes? When you heal and begin doing the necessary and sometimes uncomfortable work to change and elevate? When you choose to walk towards enlightenment? You will begin to operate at higher frequencies such as willingness at 310hz, acceptance at 350hz, love at 500hz, or peace at 600hz! As energetic beings, we have the power to manage the levels at which we operate. Remember energy can neither be created nor destroyed, only transferred. So if you’ve done a mirage of cellf work and are now intentionally operating at a 600hz frequency, but then turn around and smoke back down to 250hz, you’ll find yourcellf in a dangerous cycle of literal up and down.
There are a variety of ways that weed can affect a person. Weed for me makes me a little talkative. Where it may calm others down it makes my mind cycle. In some ways, it gets the creative juices in my brain flowing. In my body, it makes me complacent, slow, and inactive. Once the high comes down I have to literally and figuratively work to regain homeostasis in my highest frequency. It takes up to four days for a gram of smoked weed to fully exit the body. So here I am, three years into smoking every day, hitting a wall in my vibrational increase because my energies are constantly recovering from a synthetic vibration.
The amount of energy that I must now put into healing my innerg weighs on me. I’m somber and consistently fighting my intuition for reasons to pick up my joint. It helped when I was existing in an insecure, fearful, and people-pleasing mind-body. But now, I am operating with strong intuition, with the support of the U-N-Iverse and holding the hand of Allah. I have come farther in Spirit-body than I could explain and I have more life of growing to go. That’s why at this moment in my life Spirit is moving me toward sobriety. As Kendrick Lamar said, perhaps there are things I need to experience sober. There must be doors meant for me to walk through that I am keeping meyecellf from.
Spirit does this funny thing to me where it’ll occupy my every thought and moment with direction until I comply with action. I’m still working on listening to that intuition in the split second. Some direction takes me longer to process than others. But one thing I know is that spirit never gives up on me.
Who knows, maybe when I move onto my plot of land in the Jamaican mountains I’ll be able to grow my crop and can reengage. But for now, I break from the market drug that is over-processed, pumped with chemicals, and doing a disservice to the sanctity of the herb itself. Ase, Ase, Ase o!
